Ergebnisse von einer Anti-Rassismus Untersuchung

So, in 2021 I embarked on a little anti-racism dance adventure. I don’t have anything to lose, so I thought I take the risk. The result is don’t do it. Racism kills. I’m proof of it. Ever since, my life has become a living hell, including little flings like not being able to buy food for 22 days, little children peeing in the garden of their school while the responsible grown up holding her phone on her hand in direction to the child. (Left that position immediately because if I’m not worth getting a fucking decent paying job, I’m not capable of dealing with your fucking inhumanity. I reported it to the organization, they better fucking do something, but again, I asked and No fucking response! Kids! We are talking about children for Christ’s or whatever god/dess you believe in, nothing!). Open racism and sexism to count for a lifetime from all directions, and when I say all directions I mean all. Being financially crucified, no dance to be had, no response from almost any organization concerning employment, gigs, grants, residencies, nothing. An insurmountable amount of yes/no when one gig materialized that lasted one year. The duration of the actual project was 3 hours, because I was only included in the watching the final product. An incredibly weak anti-racism team that were more concerned with I don’t even know (publicity maybe?), (weil Denkmals sind so offensiv, yeah, I get it, they are, but it like how can we just get the important work done, or maybe the white supremacy is so out of control that , that’s the only work they can do). But certainly hearing my ideas , railing me in for the development of the project and disposing of me when it came to execution was very good work buddies because you keep shitting on the same people you claim to try to help, but they are sooo angry. No shit! We’re angry! Fucking the same thing racist fucks do, being done by the „anti-racists“. Because it’s supposed to look and sound pretty? Give me a fucking brake, but no , not giving fucks is seen also as problematic. Because the intersectionality of this work needs to be fed to people like you feed a baby because, it’s just too much!!!!! While we are basically dying from all sorts of extractions. But now, I’m listening to white tears and white rage all over the place. And the brown tears that are too sucked into the supremacy. So know that doing this work costs your life, but all ist Liebe. No, is not. If you can’t see it, you’re a racist or you are about to crack under the pressure of the racism you give another name to, to not feel the pain and continue to love the people that are killing you. So fucking is not an option under such conditions. Which brings me to the intersection of sexism and how women who look like me are fucked to have girlfriends because they will be the ones either pimping us up or throwing us into the fire because their partner looked at us. All of it! All of it! And I could be more specific in terms of the actual dance but what I experienced should be investigated by the authorities! But then again, what side was trying to overthrow the government??? But no, not allowed to talk about that, because that means I can think, but keep making your hats and sneaking extremist right messages in the newspaper games. What-the-fuck-ever!!! Need to worry about survival here.